I have been BUSY!! Here is a quick recap of all the craziness going on!
These past couple of weeks have not been not been so stellar in the mental department.
I am not saying that I am crazy! But I am saying that I got in a major funk!
I know I talked about this slightly the other day, however this time I really tried to focus more on why I was feeling this way.
I think it started because the last couple of long runs have not been the best. Either my legs were sore, the blisters on my feet were rubbing, or I was just tied.
I have been biking a lot lately so I also feel this was to blame, and I maybe should not be going as far and as hard as I am doing. But I love it!
I was in such a funk that I even started questioning why exercise? Why eat healthy? (I was still eating just like I do, vegetarian/ Mediterranean/ dairy free), but just thinking that this was stupid and being fat and out of shape would make me happier!
I know, CRAZY!!!
I also realized that I was not wanting to wake up at 5:00 AM and workout. Again the crazy, mental funk which I was having!
So by the time I was at work (8:00 am- 5:15 pm), I did not want to work out at all. I was tired, hungry and had this cloud of online school work which had to be done.
This was most prevalent on Tuesday and Wednesday.
Like really bad.
However Thursday rolled around and I was feeling SICK.
Nausea big time, shaking like I was 140 years old and a killer headache.
However I planned on biking. I knew that by exercising I would feel better and in the end, this might bring me back to my motivation of a marathon, and a possible Tri (!!).
So I laced up the shoes, biking shoes that is, strapped on my helmet and strapped on my bike helment.
I wanted to go to my favorite trail.
The trail use to be an old line for trains. However, the line became useless when they opened up a different line. So they turned it into a path! The weekends are awesome because so many people go out to get in their sweat on! You have runners, bikers, roller bladders, and walkers! Such a motivation, when I see others exercising it makes me want to sweat and feel that “high”! And when I see other exercising this really motivates me!
Well 3:00 on a Thursday afternoon will not get you many people out there! However it was a wonderful ride, at times I felt shaky from not feeling well, but eventually got my stride and felt AWESOME.
Friday, I woke up early at 5:30 and decided to do a run. I was not expecting much at all, but somehow this run was GREAT!
5 miles felt like nothing and I beaming from ear to ear with each stride. The run ended and I truly felt like a runner, an athlete, myself!
The rest of the day was spent catching up on homework and going golfing with Bruce. We golf when we have some down time. It is something that we both enjoy a lot.
Friday I was playing my best game since high school! It was great!
Friday in general was one of the best days in a long time!
Saturday morning we woke up early and I went for a 22 mile bike ride and Bruce went out for a 5 mile run.
It was a GORGEOUS morning!
I had one of my fastest rides and it was awesome.
However, I knew that I should have taken it easier because the next day was my long run for the week….
Sunday. Um. Let us see. I woke up pumped for my long run. We decided to go out a little later, and I figured the weather was going to be cooler.
That was a big mistake. We started at like 7:45, and it was already starting to heat up.
Not good. I am very very sensitive to heat when it comes to running. (Bruce would say I am sensitive in general ;)
So at about mile . I had to stop and I realized at this point, it was going to be a very long run.
Mile 3 came and I stopped again and this time I had to find a bathroom and I was overheating.
Not many places are open that early on Sunday morning so I ended up finding a port-a-potty at a local track.
And I started to run again.
But I was in a lot of pain in my stomach and it was just awful.
Bruce passed me and he was going really strong, I was really happy for him! Once I had just 1 mile left, till I got back to the car, I decided to run it.
And I ran it strong.
When I got back to the car, I broke down crying and complaining.
I realized that sports will disappoint you at some point in your life, and you will have to get over it and move on.
Today is my move on day. I know that I can run, bike, be the athlete that I am.
Today I want to prove to myself that I can and I will be that athlete.
Sorry for the long post, and delay, but my weekends are always just jammed back! I love it!
Have a great day!